I don't write when I'm happy. When shit isn't going my way or I'm heart broken, hell even if I just plain don't feel good, the words flow from me. I can vomit out the pain and hurt with no regard and out will come my gratitude for life. The fact that I can feel anything is something I rejoiced. I'm good at being angry. I'm good at being hurt. I'm good at being the under dog. What do I do when shit is going my way? It has been too, going my way that is.
Something wonderful has happened to me. Let me rephrase. Something wonderful is happening to me. I generally don't talk about such things publicly because of my epic pessimism but words have power and this must be shared. Attitude of gratitude if you will.
My daughter posted this picture for the world to see and captioned it "My moms family with me, my dads family with me, and me and #cusen #grace." While her spelling of cousins is horrendous, it's very telling. This is her family. We may live in two different houses but we are a family regardless. My ex-wife (aka the baby momma) and I have maintained a family unit even though we dissolved our marriage. When I say dissolved I mean have a horrendous and ugly break up. With time we have moved past that and can for the most part coparent our asses off. We don't agree on everything but we do agree on that we must do the best we can for our children.
Me coparenting with my ex-wife isn't news though we've been doing it for a while and yes I call her Baby Momma to her face. We do our best and what else could you ask for?
Me coparenting with my ex-wife isn't news though we've been doing it for a while and yes I call her Baby Momma to her face. We do our best and what else could you ask for?
What has changed tho is the family dynamic, enter the GF (which is girlfriend for you tragically unhip people). This woman has done nothing but add value to my life, nothing but. She is a clean freak and I'm a perpetual frat boy. She loves to cook and I'll eat frozen pizza every single day. She makes lists and writes things on calendars, I just kinda wing it. It works, our crazy's mesh.
So I've had to change most everything where I refer to myself as a single parent. Because I'm just not anymore. I have the ex and the current and for the most part we are all on the same page. My family has grown by two and my heart has quadrupled. Funny how you always find it in a place you weren't even looking.
So while my blog may suffer from my happiness...........